i wanna know the truth..instead of wondering why
i wanna know the answers..no more lies
i wanna shut the door..open up my mind
and then it's back to the sinking feeling of being all on one's own..all in my world is me and only me!but trust me..it's not even half as dismal as you would think it sounds like.it's brilliant..why??how??well,simple.instead of trying,all your life,to find that compatibility or that sense of belonging..in vain,just belong to yourself..!!instead of using your head to think of very dumb stuff like what you could have done or how it might have been..just make yourself believe that it's over.because it could not have been any better.instead or being overly pretentious,to an extent that you seem to be losing a grip on yourself,just be yourself.you have to be loved for what you are..not what you could pretend to be!!and goodness..!i've seen people who are so different with everyone.i seriously pity their insecurity.at times they forget that being so pretentious might even earn them equally pretentious friends.now..am sure no one would want THAT!or if it seems that you would'nt want to move forward..for the fear of being apart..then,you definitely need to call 911!!it's an emergency.need a sense of belonging..belong to yourself.because you know you'll always be there for you and you would'nt have to pretend with yourself.
i agree it's not good to preach that i don't need anyone.because i know i do..everyone does.but you definitely don't need anyone to teach you to breathe or cry or feel.don't we all do this on our own?so all that's in my head is that i don't have to lose myself to gain someone or something.nothing,absolutely, is worth that.so,a few hasty decisions which i almost made..would have been disastrous..had they been put to action!!and why did i do that?i did it thinking that it's all about making others happy.well..this concept works only with parents..only with them.it's justified if your dad and mum beam when they accept a certain decision of yours.but for anyone else..
this is not about being lonely or not coming out of one's shell.it's just that you'd rather place yourself first before thinking about any individual in the world.and if this sounds self centered then it's not meant to be.because you get so tired trying to please everyone or forget yourself in the never ending process of making others appreciate you.and eventually..as i've seen..the so called appreciation comes when you are least expecting it.let things take their own shape instead of you trying hard to shape them to fit your bill.so..fine!!let things be the way they are.and all you got to do is LIVE!!itz something you think you've been doing all along but really haven't!!
i wanna heal..i wanna feel..
like iam close to something real..
i wanna find something i've wanted all along..
somewhere i belong...